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A girl called Joy

This is my kid sister Joy. I took these pics with my 2MP nokia phone when she was about 4 years old. (Yes, those were the dark ages when I didnt have my Cyber Shot digicam with me) but she loved posing for the camera anyways.

See what I mean? Whenever I used to get home, the first thing I used to do was take a few pics of her then itself. Joysa climbed on a bed that was nearly as tall as her to get this pic taken. I guess thats a smile of accomplishment she’s got grinning away.

She’s got the loveliest eyes. My better half once told me – “Joy’s such a pretty little thing, that too when she’s this young. Whatever went wrong with you???” Haha, such a comedian.

I guess she didnt want me to take this pic. But she looks so cute even when she’s not smiling!

Dirty words

I woke up today morning at six thirty
Twenty nine seem like words so dirty
Now I’m watching Friends on TV
And the dog’s about to sing happy birthday to me

Before I went to bed last night
Two friends mellowed me; namely vodka and sprite
As a result, midnight missed calls reigned supreme
While I did surprising song sequences in my dream

The world still seems the same, only I have aged
Even as a sea of turmoil inside me raged
I’m going to miss being twenty eight
I feel like a perfect fisherman’s bait

How quickly did all these years pass by
Half a lifetime flits in a blink of an eye
Much as I hate it, I’m growing old
I’m panicked and nervous – hey, I’m not that bold!

My aunt called me to wish me the other day
At 71, she’s feisty and spirited – that I can sure say
She refused to believe I was twenty nine
I laughed to hear her echo thoughts exactly like mine

I then wondered, if I really have to grow older by the year
Like her, I’d at least live life to the fullest – no fear
I suppose I should be thankful I’m not thirty
I stand corrected – those are the words most dirty

Tax-free

I may be exempted from paying my Income Tax, as per the latest notification by the Sikkim government.

I wonder how to blow up that extra cash every month.

Finito

Its has been fun being 28. And I am not at all looking forward to being 29. That just leaves me one year of crossing over to the doomed side. I cannot imagine being 30. How would I react to things? Should I act all grown up and lose sight of the fun things in life? Should I be more serious and cross out all things that make me happy in life? Could I never smile again???

I dont know why people have to grow old. I am perfectly content being 28. Heck, I was perfectly content being 26. But no! the units in my age have to increase one by one like those stupid counters I teach in class to reach this even more stupid age.

I envy people in their early twenties. I think there’s nothing greater than the I-dont-give-a-damn feeling of youth. Of course now that I’ve almost half a foot in the grave, I might as well hang up my dancing shoes and consider myself lucky if I have Fun once a year.

I hate 2008. I wish it was 2007 again. I dont want to be 29. My life is over. I am old. Senile is me. I cant believe almost three decades of my life is already over. I still havent done half the things I wanted to do in this lifetime. Its funny watching Joey cry, “Why God, why?” on TV. Its an entirely different story when it happens in reality.

If I cant stand to be 29, I wonder if I have to sit to be 30 next year…

In a pickle

(Memory triggered by Priya’s mentioning of exotic Sikkim pickles way back in hostel)

The funny thing about college is that I dont really remember attending classes all that much. Nor do I remember that many lecturers who used to have time of their life torturing my ignorance of the technical world. I can think of only two reasons why I wouldnt remember my classes/teachers. Either I’m just getting past my initial stage of Alzhimer’s or else I didnt really attend classes all that much as I was supposed to. Considering that I had attendance shortage in almost every alternate semester, I’d say the second option was more accurate.

What I remember very vividly is spending some of the most memorable times of my life in the Ladies Hostel (LH). I was ragged in the very first few days of my arrival at the LH. There was this big haired, wicked witch in the final year whose voice was like whiplash and who shot daggers whenever you happened to catch her eye. I dont remember her name or else I would have gladly printed it here, trust me. I’m not trying to protect her identity and be a nice person or any sort of such foolish thing.

Anyway, I never understood the logic behind ragging. Something about facing the person with the real world and blah blah. What I personally think is that it was a major opportunity for sadistic, evil people to bridge their insecurities and make fun of potential threats. And all one can do is rave & rant about it in her blog 10 years down the line. Nothing else much.

Deep breath. Realization strikes that I’m digressing. Back to good memoirs. Repeat mantra three times (along with fist pump) - No anger against fools. No anger against fools. No anger against #*@#&*# fools.

A way of dispelling early homesickness was by haunting the post office for much awaited parcels from home. My dad used to be such a sweetheart and send me stuff like L’Oreal hair colour, in burgundy, sweets and pickle. My favourite pickle was this exotic pea one, which my dad wrapped it up in layers of plastic and parcelled all the way from Gangtok to Calicut one fine day.

When I went to collect my parcel at the post office, I was summoned to the Post Master’s cabin. He then pointed to an oil-stained parcel lying on the floor and which was pretty much soaked through & through with yellow oil. I got a big lecture on how my oil-leaking parcel went on to destroy so many important letters and so on and on and on.

After about 20 minutes of strained lecture from the Post Master, I ran away from the post office, holding on to my pickle-parcel all the way to the hostel. I retold the story later on to my friends, while eating dinner alongwith yummy, exotic pea pickle just arrived all the way from Gangtok. We laughed & laughed not caring one bit about important letters getting destroyed by getting soaked in pickle oil.

Such pickle incident happened twice in the entire duration of my stay in the hostel. The staff at the post office then started smiling the moment they saw me henceforth.

I wonder if at the end of this post, some people are going – “Ohhh… thats why I got yellow oil-stained letters that particular day…” Yes, I’m afraid to say, that was me.

I am not your Auntie

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A painful memory vexed me into writing this post. Please to not gauge my mood or sense of self depreciation by this one post only.

You think you’re respecting me by calling me this name – but I have news for you. I dont need no respect and I dont need anyone reminding me I am getting older by the day: I am not your auntie.

You think by bumping into me or stepping on my toes, you’re doing the right thing by apologizing profusely, therefore calling me this name – but I dont need no apologies and I dont need anyone to put iodised salt on my wounds: I am not your auntie.

You think that if I help you get the right direction or pick up jetsam from your bag, you’d want to thank me by calling me this name – I dont need a fake relationship or an overgrown niece. Therefore, I am definitely not your auntie.

You think since you’re a teenager or someone emaciated enough to look like one, you qualify in calling all and sundry by this name – have I got a newsflash for you: sooner or later you would so understand what I’m talking about and I wait earnestly for that day.

So after evidently bearing the brunt of how it feels like to be on the other side of the early twenties, I take this opportunity to apologise all the people I myself called aunties and uncles while my brain had not fully developed 10 years back. I wish I myself had read something like this way back… I wouldnt have even dreamt of calling my own auntie one.

Bartley, my son

I once took part in a play in college. I was the mother with the powdered white hair. Although looking back, it seems I was always chosen to play the mother, dunno why. So anyways, this play was put together at the last minute which meant that nobody actually had any time to practice their lines or remember a long list of never-ending dialogues.

A classmate graciously offered to stand in the shadows, holding the script and prompt whenever the characters on stage forgot anything. With that infallible concept in hand, we headed towards enacting a most unforgettable and thoroughly laughable play in the history of that particular stage at least.

The scene was supposed to be a dramatically sad one; the dead body of the son is brought home and the family weeps at the loss of a life so young. When it was time for the mother’s speech of lament, luck had it that I remembered only two sentences which I stupidly repeated like about 10 times. I dont remember now exactly what misfortune befell the prompter but either she took just that time to take a break or she spoke so low that I couldnt hear any of my other lines.

So the white haired mother lamented thus – “Bartley, my son Bartley… now that you are gone, who will feed us and look after us?” That was the first line that I remembered. The second one went something like this – “Bartley, now that you are gone, who will fish for us and bring bread on the table“.

Later on, a friend in the audience told me that the mother came across as being only concerned about where her food is going to come from and for her, that was a tragedy even greater than a son dead.

Bartley, on his part also did his best to have the audience in splits. Although he was supposed to be dead, his eyes wouldnt stop blinking and his feet kept twitching for a dead body. We, the cast ourselves had a hearty laugh when we heard of the shenanigans that happened onstage later on.

And to think we got third place for this play. Maybe the judges gave points for all the laughter. And for the semi-dead Bartley perhaps. I’ve not had the courage to participate in any other play after that.

So you think you want a pup?

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Even I did, about a year ago… I wanted a pup so badly that I had to cry, beg and literally throw a tantrum before I was allowed one. It all began when I visited a friend’s place. She had two fully grown male labradors named Kane and Dylan. Kane was the lean, agile & easily excitable one who lived to play and bark non-stop whereas Dylan was the fat, lazy one who ate all his food without a pause and aimed at polishing off Kane’s leftovers, of which there was always plenty.

So I contacted a breeder and after a week, I was the proud owner of a two and half month fat, yellow female labrador puppy who was christened Winkie Poo. Winkie gets her name after the female house elf in the Harry Potter series.

Contrary to all the rules to be considered before buying a puppy, I did absolutely no research whatsoever before buying one. I didnt even know which and all breeds were supposedly good for what type of lifestyle. All I knew then was that I wanted another Kane or Dylan – period. Active or lazy… I didnt really care.

I also didnt have any idea that I would actually have to feed this pup, clean up her mess in the house and take her outdoors on a regular basis. Now its all hunky dory when you have people to help you with all that but when you’re a single mom to your pup, like moi, without the luxury of anyone helping out, you pretty much have to get down and do everything yourself, including picking doggy doo from the floor and disposing it outside. Every single damn time. Yuck was an understatement for a long time…

Trainers and dog walkers were not accessible to me where I live and I suck at training idiot pups. So by now, my dog is a disobedient imbecile who wont respond to any commands. She also refused to be toilet trained no matter how hard I tried to break that habit. For a long, long time. I seriously am not exaggerating when I say that my living room used to smell like a public toilet and was ashamed to let anyone enter my house.

Winkie never slept in her own bed while growing up. She used to sleep at the foot of my bed which I was okay with in the beginning… Then slowly, as the months went by, the small lump at my feet started growing heavier and heavier till I couldnt even move in my own bed at night. Thats when I started kicking her off the bed. Although she was adamant not to accept this new sleeping arrangement, several nights of kicking did the trick and now Winkie’s made the floor next to my bed her sleeping area. Whew!

I’ve spent endless cash on her vaccinations, de-wormings, food, toys, leashes that she bit her way through growing up, chains that she broke due to her sheer strength and so on. I love giving her a nice, juicy bone that she spends hours gnawing happily; which also means that whether there is meat for people in the house or not, Winkie gets meat all the time.

Finally, Winkie gave a whole new meaning to the words “Animal Loving” when she was teething. Her way of showing affection for me when I returned home in the evening was trying to sever my hand away from my body. She thought I was a chew toy and that she could dig her razor sharp fangs as and when she pleased. My arms used to be bruised with angry red slashes most of the time. Anyone would have thought I was being beaten up in my own home!

And now for the good news. Winkie turns one year old this 22nd. She’s now a sweet dog who doesnt strain against the leash and huff & puff when I take her for walks anymore. She’s also stopped lunging at any stray dog that crosses our path during the morning walks. She’s been toilet trained finally and her Animal Loving has gone pffttt. When I think back on what a savage little beast she used to be, I wonder if she’s the same dog…

What I’ve learnt from my stint as a rookie pet owner is that – while a pup may be cute and cuddy and sooooo sweet, she is also a big responsibility that you need to step upto and do your best. I’ve seen many people give away their grown dogs simply because they cant take care of them anymore. Why take one in the first place? Would they do the same to their own child?

I love my dog. She’s the apple of my eye and the best thing thats happened to me. I guess, in the end the question is, if and when you buy a pup, will you be the best thing thats ever happened to them.

For Jaya

(…who inspired me to write this post)

My life began two decades & eight years back when I had the privilege of sharing my childhood with some wonderful people whom I can still count as my friends. Although its been decades since we last met, we share a nostalgic bond that goes back in time to frilly skirts and birthday parties filled with presents and good times.

My parents had about a dozen neighbours who in turn had at least two kids so we were a huge group of noisy/bratty/sweet/angelic/strange kids of every colour, shape and size. We girls used to stick together, along with our kid brother/sister in tow and head out to play marbles, chasing each other for no apparent reason, show off newly bought stuff – I once threw Jaya’s brand new eraser down the drain because I was so jealous!!! Poor thing cried like anything – I still feel guilty about it even now…

We were more than just neighbours forced to live next door to each other… we were like a part of a huge extended family that celebrated every festival with one another. I especially remember the wonderful Diwali times when we used to go mad bursting crackers and fireworks. The explosions that went off outside our homes made it sound as though a real war was literally going on. Christmas time used to bring in carol singers braving the cold winter night and singing beautiful hymns too.

I remember the sunny winter days where we used to gather around and have a picnic right in the front yard or sit on the long steps that led to a kid called Ubica’s house and eat oranges! Quite a unique name… wonder what it meant… We also used to hold dance shows where we showcased some of our best dancers in the neighbourhood. With me & another girl as the choreographers. I must say I have no idea what made me actually do all that….

We spent so much time of our childhood playing happily with one another that we didnt realize when it was that we grew up and by that time, we were already 16 and shifted base to all parts of the state/country. Its only now, after three whole decades do I realize what a wonderful childhood we had and what beautiful friendships we made during those precious years.

If only I could give my children (as and when, people… read on) some kind of childhood like that, I think I would have had half my job as a parent WELL DONE. To all my friends from those good old days…. thanks for making the first one and half decades of my life memorable.

If I had a chance to go back in time, I wouldnt change even one thing… except perhaps relive it happily all over again. And also not chuck Jaya’s new eraser down the drain ;)

So any good news yet?

 

This Q seems to always find me no matter where I turn.
So okay 3 & 1/2 years is a long time and yeah, I’m pushing 28.
Yup, most of my friends currently are mommys while I am yet to walk the walk.Marriage after 6 short months of whirlwind courtship obviously led to some wild speculations.

“Two words – knocked up. Why else all this hurry? Snicker snicker”

Fast forward to the present. I’ll take a guess at the gossip…

“Maybe she’s barren, tch tch, poor thing”

Profound sense of irony is something I find less irritating, more humourous. Never a dull moment :) And for possible speculations, I’d like to borrow Rhett’s line, frankly my dear, I dont give a damn.
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