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A driving force

I was in my second year of college when my best pal invited me to a trip to her house in Cochin. So both of us made a five hour journey all the way from Calicut to her place to be greeted very warmly by her wonderful mum, Amma. Looking back, I cant help but wonder what a Super Mom she really is. She’s a doctor by profession and an amazing cook who used to feed us dosas, idlis, puttus, appams and what not at breakfast! Yumm…. Now this is a really big deal since now that I’m also working, I can only manage to provide bread & eggs for breakfast. Thats why I really appreciate her culinary skills & time management especially at rush hour!

Amma is also a very good driver not to mention an excellent mom. I remember her taking us & the girls to Weekender and other places for shopping trips which we simply enjoyed. She drove us all over MG Road in Cochin and I remember thinking Wow! I’m sure there are few moms who’ll indulge their kids (and their friends) so much!

When our trip finally did get over, she drove us to the railway station and packed us a big bundle of marble cake and biryani for lunch. I still remember her clearly standing at the station waving us off, looking so pretty in her sari. What a Complete Woman!

A few years later, when I finished college and got back home, the first thing I demanded my dad was that I wanted to learn how to drive the car. He pointed me to a driving school and paid my fees following which I finally learnt how to drive and there’s been no looking back ever since.

Four years later, here I am today – I believe I am an experienced enough driver, excluding one memory of a terrible crash but yeah, you live and you learn. These days, when I drive my car to office, I cant help but remember Amma who undoubtably inspired me to get driving. Hats off to her and I love her as much for being my real-life idol :)

Fare thee well, my friend

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Goodbye, my dear friend, you were more than just a student for me. These three short, sweet years that we have spent together, creating beautiful memories will surely last my lifetime. You have left behind a void in my life, a lingering emptiness and my heart is heavy, knowing that maybe we may never meet again for a long time to come. I bid you goodbye, dear friend as our paths separate this very day and you follow your destiny while I stay back fulfilling mine.

Farewell, my beloved. May you grow as a person and reach soaring heights in whichever path you choose to take. I wish joy and happiness to embrace you and never leave you even for one moment. I hope you will remember me whenever you go through tough times and know that I will always be thinking of you, wishing you courage to handle things.

I dont want this goodbye to be forever. I hope we will meet again soon and laugh about times gone by. I wish you all the love in the world so that you will never be unhappy. I will always think of you, my dearest Anusha.

And I will miss you.

About old friends

Yesterday I met an old friend of mine, a classmate since kindergarten actually. We were together right upto high school and met after a period of perhaps a decade or more later. Seeing him was bittersweet in every sense of the word. He looked ruggedly handsome with all the right lines on his face, a nice unshaved look and just a hint of long hair. After I was done appreciating his good looks, I started wondering about how his life had gone till date and whether or not he also went through that rough, transitory period of drudging through all stupid things in life and growing up to be a wiser, if not more sane person, like me.

Its not just about this one friend… I wonder how my old friends have been doing since I last saw them 7 years, 10 years, 15 years back. I count myself fortunate that I did reunite with some very dear old friends, thanks to Orkut and I am more or less in constant touch with them at least. Meanwhile back to the train of thought chugging around in my head, I wonder how my old friend from college is, the one who gave up her love and married the guy chosen by her parents. Last I heard, she was the proud mom of two kids. Or another pal from college who was as gutsy as hell, although we, read: AnDePRin, didnt understand it back then and thought she was loud instead.

Its strange how we all are briefly together for a short period of time, enjoy each other’s company, thinking there’s no tomorrow and suddenly, we say goodbye to each other thinking oh well, we’ll meet one day or the other. What we dont count on is the fact that some goodbyes are forever indeed.

The AnDePRin Saga

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Once upon a time in the remotest corner of civilization possible, lived four good friends in what was called the Ladies Hostel or LH for short. These girls were Ann, De, Pri & Rin and one night all four racked their brains to think what their group should be called before they passed out from college when they decided on AnDePRin. Also sardonically called as The Cough Syrup company by Ms. De, of which all girls were the primary stake holders!

And so, all four members of AnDePRin parted after the short 4 years in REC Calicut where they spent more time solving their personal problems than engineering sums of computer or electrical nature. They not only took along with them a new approach to life as intelligent women but also some memories that would probably last them a life time or more.

These girls laughed together (a lot) much to the bewilderment of other open mouthed, gaping mand-buddhis/doofuses who passed off as their college mates. They told each other all their troubles and shared advices as of what to do next & how and basically played each other’s Oprah to the hilt.

All four would exchange Calvin & Hobbes, Asterix & Obelix, Tintin and a thousand other novels borrowed from Eloor library in town. Someone amongst the four also used to read Photoromance mags but I dont remember now who!

They even wrote anonymous, sarcastic letters against supposed authorities over despotic issues and had them pasted all over campus courtesy of one boyfriend who did quite a thorough job, as everyone in college observed the next day.

They went for movies to the only English theatre in town, against undesired, creepy attention of all leering, drooling males who probably never saw a female in their stupid life ever before. They survived a kleptomaniac & major bitch whose shenanigans would require another whole post dedicated in the harrowing memory…

The AnDePRin members are now succesful women in their own respective fields. Who would have thought that friendships made over puttu-breakfast & cream rolls for tea would last a lifetime. AnDePRin lives on through electronic mail & memories from a sleepy placed called Calicut. The LH couldnt have boasted of better inmates and sooner or later, someone will have to remind it of this fact!

Mutta Chechi

Back in the days of yore, we used to get bread, jam & eggs twice a week in the Ladies Hostel. The mess worker, fondly known as Mutta Chechi (Mutta=egg & chechi=elder sister, in Malayalam) used to make us customised eggs while we formed a larger than life queue outside the kitchen door.

She used to make these amazing eggs, with onions, green chillies & black pepper, as per the wish of the egg eater. She used to churn out omlettes, double omlettes, Bulls eye day after day for the 4 years that I was there in the hostel. Her eggs used to have this even spread and large circumferences that made us wonder if a single egg could be that big.

Most of the time I make eggs for breakfast at home, she is the first person I think of and wonder if she’s still making memorable eggs for all and sundry in the hostel right now. I think I speak for all the ex-inmates when I say that eggs were the best thing after Mutta Chechi in the hostel mess ever.

The Calicut Experience

A period of my life stands unmistakably lucid in my memory. It was the summer of 1997 that I enrolled in REC Calicut for four years of harrowingly memorable college. To be fair enough, there were good things and there were an equal number of bad things. Good or bad, all one could do at that point of time was take things in one’s stride and face it with a grin.

First came the language factor. Its not a pleasant experience being the only North Eastern girl in a bunch of malayalis in the hostel and not understanding a word being jabbered about. The endless streams of Malayalam got exchanged back and forth, while we poor minorities from the northern part of the country looked at each other’s faces and rolled our eyes! But all that became history when I met my best friend Anju. She’s the sweetest girl in the whole wide world, my teacher through 4 years of college to whom I truly owe my degree. She taught me the basics of the language. Then came much needed help in the form of mess chechis. (Chechi = elder sister) Slowly and steadily, I learnt the language and was soon the newest sensation in the hostel, the college and pretty much the town. I became this chinky female from God only knows where, who suddenly understands Malayalam and speaks it too. It was truly one of the finest moments of my life…

The college was just like any other semi-urban one, boys dominating the population and fighting over which girl would have the good fortune to be their girlfriend. Evening trips to the Happy Valley and Sorrow Valley (a.k.a. the Couples Valley) ensured constant romance in full bloom. Rumours spread faster even than wildfire and sometimes I think the general populace got wind of probable link ups even faster than the two main people concerned!

The problem with these romances was that unfortunately the profs’ houses used to line the Valley to Hostel route. Those dirty old geezers used to give us even dirtier looks as if to say wait- till-the-sessionals-come, you-people-are-in-hot-soup. But being the typical rebel, I usually gave a damn. Looking back makes me wonder how it was I ever passed their tests, esp that horrid, cranky old Fluid Mechanics prof who had made me his pet peeve.

I almost wish I didnt have to mention the grossest part of the 4 years… But like life, Calicut also has its dark side, without which the story shall remain incomplete. The college was a good one hour bus journey from the city. A mere 7 bucks was the fare, although the crowded buses rarely were empty. An interesting concept prevalent down south is the “ladies seat” at the front of the bus. Even then, some male would invariably have parked his butt there and it was always a pleasure to see sharp ladies deliver their comeuppance and eject them out from the privileged seat!

More often than not, these buses used to commute perverts and creeps, who’se fave pass time was to feel up girls. This trait was not only isolated to buses but the main city, walking amidst crowded frustated men… still sends a shiver up my spine. I recollect a belligerent moment of slapping a creep in a crowded bus plus delivering the choicest of Malli gaalis I could possibly think of, that I’m sure left him wondering if he’d felt up the wrong girl… I’d also like to take this moment to publicly enlighten the Kerala government that your ladies seat still doesnt guarantee safety of the women occupying them!

Calicut was my home for 4 years. In this short duration, I inculcated a love for malayali food, some of which I still make in my home and I must say have a new found respect for the multi-talented coconut. I love the beautiful backwaters, the spectacular beaches and also learnt to live with the hot, humid weather. It was a 4 years well spent and all my learning experiences has made me what I am today. So no regrets whatsoever….never did that, never will either. Since I’m all grown up now, I’m truly less in denial now than before. I’d say it was a time well spent, a life lived to the fullest and will blessedly continue till I live. Cheers!

A bitter sweet thing called friendship

Sometimes the past comes back with a vengance to bite you in the you-know-where. Im 27 years old and its indeed been a decade since I was a gawky, akward, all-knowing teenager, roaming fearlessly around the streets with my friends. What friendships we had around that time. We thought we were invincible and everything we did showcased that… Be it taunting the tution teacher to defiantly walking out of the class just to show that we dont need no education! I experimented with my first lipstick around the same time, bleached my hair to a ghastly bright yellow, wore what I thought were fashionable rags, only now to realize that they were not really fashionable but merely rags and now that I think about it, makes me want to crawl under a rock everytime I meet old acquaintances.

Fast forward to the present. I met up with my best bud this week who had come home for the holidays. Two of us went for a long drive up the hills, singing old Manila Sotang songs. When we reached our destination, the cold winds were raising a havoc already and we took a lotta pics with our hair flying awry and all. The day got over in a few minutes and it was already time to go back home. How I wished that time would never pass…

These days, when I talk to my old friends about days gone by, I’m filled with a strange sense of bittersweet emotions…maybe its the feeling that those good old days are gone and wont come back, maybe its the incredible sense of If Only I could have those moments once again. Reliving all those memories is a painful tug of the heart, a stab of missing the golden years.

But then again, something tells me that we just think and long for something cause its already gone by. What we dont realize is that even the present going on right now will be a past some day and I’d better live it up and make it as memorable as possible! Thats when a light goes on in my head and I start feeling better about everything and concentrate on living a better life, even if its just for the sake of having better memories, who knows?

Then slowly the bittersweet emotions subside and there emerges a new never-say-die attitude that tells me to live like there’s no tomorrow….and thats what I hope to do.

P.S. Shaliya, my love….a thousand thanks for inducting me into this blog thing. Cant tell you how stress-busting this is turning out to be!

The fan speaks

There’s something about the music of Alanis Morissette that I may not be able to word it exactly, still it feels like this is what I’d like to write about in my first precious blog; heard her album Jagged Little Pill when I was in school and I was struck clean by the fact that she could sing long sentences stringed together in what could not possibly have been music, yet it was. Very meaningful, beautiful music.

A decade later, I’m still a fan. Still love her music. Still listen to Jagged Little Pill and more recently, Supposed Former Infatuation Junkie and Under Rug Swept. Havent had the good fortune of listening to all her albums, no matter how big a fan I may declare myself to be but I love her music unconditionally.

Her earlier songs earmarked my various transitory phases in life. I still remember my first crush, I was head over feet in myself but when it went up in a smoke, I realized that you live and you indeed end up learning. Along the way, I realized that its an ironic life we all lead. Sometimes all I really ever wanted was deliverance, so consumed by the chill of solitary… but then eventually, I wisened up and got my act together. I understood that what it all boils down to is that no one’s really got it figured out just yet….that I’ve got one hand in my pocket and the other one is giving a high five!

 

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