So the dreaded moment is finally around the corner. I will be turning 28 next month; already saying this is giving me the heebie jeebies. Its downright heartbreaking to realize that this will be my final two years to be in my twenties. After that, I am as good as dead. Well, I’m not trying to make fun of the 30′s or what comes after but I am so desperate that I cannot think of any other potential doom looming ahead than growing older.
Much as I hate it, this historical moment is however making me take stock of life and analyze myself up front. What major significant achievement have I accomplished so far? What is the one thing I have done that has made me proud of myself? Have I achieved all the goals I had (supposedly) set and did I fulfill all my wishes I had imagined I would?
In a broader sense, yes I have been there, done that and I guess I can say that I am much wiser now. I’m also less in denial now than I was a decade earlier. I have moments to be proud about myself & I like being a part of all my students’ lives, for better or for worse. I hope to break all my dreams into little pieces & achieve them one by one. I have been using too many I’s here, I know!
Time does its part in flying by. One moment you are minding your own business, the next moment you’re suddenly 28. If I didnt know better, I’d say the Gods are conspiring against me. Well, I suppose there’s nothing else to do than unwillingly move every day forward into the next month. I dread each passing day and rave & rant bitterly about it in my spare time, which is way too often for my own good.
I guess I have two more years before Armageddon. Not much of a comfort especially when the last 28 years have somehow slipped through my fingers. What the crap is two more years?
Meanwhile, the countdown begins. All systems alert – T minus 45 days to launch. Houston to Earth, we are in for a rough ride. Please fasten your seat belts & wait for Rinjan to rant some more.
Time does its part in flying by indeed! the big three and O sort of always reminds me of Rachel’s b’day in Friends. you keep ranting, but my experience says ‘its not all that bad’. its the same blow as we get when we step out of teenage, only to find twenties rock!
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with the increased energy and awareness around, i hv actually started feeling that the three and O is the ‘in-thing’ and yes, very very sexy
Hey man! Rachel’s birthday was the exact thing I was thinking of while I was writing this!
Will parallel lives never cease… To quote Joey, ‘Why, God why? Why you doing this to us???’
I hope to hell you’re right, girl. 30′s better be more rocking than 20′s or else I dont know what I’m going to do with myself! Is 30′s really the ‘in-thing’??? Wow! Am I glad to hear that. Now I have a ray of hope to look forward to!